Watch for morning

I don't mean to be sacrilegious just introspective. I can generally hear from God in the moment to speak over other people or to get encouragement. But when it comes to those major decisions I always try to take a step back and say am I acting in faith or am I stepping out in crazy. I guess it takes the holy spirit to know the difference. Several years ago I concluded that the spirit was telling me that I had crossed the line because I wasn't paying attention when the wind changed direction. Today I look at my life and say, what have I achieved is my system flawed I am 25 and living with my parents (but only because it's cheaper.) That's a lie I can't afford it. Most of my friends are married and getting houses and I'm older than most of them. All that to say am I making the right decisions or am I not trying hard enough or asking the right questions.

my new blog

Yes I have a new blog, it's fantastic, it's amazing, it's crazy. But the question on everyone's mind (everyone in the room that is (just me)) will I use it. The answer to that remains to be seen but there is only one way to find out. For one thing all my friends are doing it, well no not all my friends but a large percentage are. This sort of thing can work both ways however. If something is popular I usually avoid it but blogging in and of itself is by definition original. Do you think that if J-Lo had a blog it would be origional? or Richard Gere? Both are none for their poor acting and unjustified popularity with the opposite gender. Where am I going with this I lost track.

The next dilemma I had was in naming my blog. My first idea was "where the wild things blog" but that seemed like too much of a nockoff of someone else's blog. I thought about hash browns or french toast but that was too high in carbs, not to mention french toast was taken. Then I thought of a line from this violent femmes song I had in my head "where she is now I can only guess" but that would come across like I am pining away for some girl when it really means I don't know and I don't care. Moreover my resentment of the female gender is fading these days and I don't want to have to change my blog title when I want to not come across as dismissing of love/romance when I am smitten by some girl. At least I admit that I won't feel like running from intimacy forever. Finally I settled on watchformorning which one may recognize better when followed by @gmail.com. It represents my longing for hope and destiny that I have always had for myself and others. This is a value that is very much a part of me and will remain so indefinatly barring a full meltdown of my soul and spirit which at this point looks about as unlikely as seeing me linedancing and smoking a cigarette while whoever is president sends their kids off to war.